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Fried_Leroy
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Name: Andrew
Location: Pennsylvania, United States
Birthday: 3/9/1982
Gender: Male
Interests: Guitar, Bass Guitar, Drums, Percussion things, Loud Noises, Music, Local Bands, WXPN, Books, Occasional Xbox, Coffee Beverages, Diners, 2nd Hand Smoke, Movies, Concerts, Occasional Hand Holding, Change, Pretty Things, Warm Breezes, Bad Ideas, Fun, Flip Flops, Mike Stenson.
Expertise: Still an expert at rude, disgusting noises...
LBC Mail Services, Ret.
Also, memorizing part numbers.
Occupation: Supervisory
Industry: Construction
Message: message me
Member Since:
9/19/2003
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| so this is the new year.
and i don't feel any different.
the clanking of crystal
explosions off in the distance (in the distance).
so this is the new year
and I have no resolutions
for self assigned penance
for problems with easy solutions
so everybody put your best suit or dress on
let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
as thirty dialogues bleed into one
i wish the world was flat like the old days
then i could travel just by folding a map
no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
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| I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be learning from this situation. I know I'm not comfortable with it. I know that my thoughts and feelings are betraying me at times. I know there's a lot that I need to get under control. I think ultimately I need to find a way to be ok with not knowing. And that won't be easy.
Sitting here this morning, it strikes me that I never just let my iTunes play on random anymore. I'm always looking for something specific. I had forgotten how nice it can be to be surprised by a song I haven't heard in ages.
I'm sitting here, specifically avoiding church this morning. I shouldn't, I know. But it's a church discipline day. I hate those. I understand the need for discipline as it's laid out in Matthew. I hate seeing it come to this point though. I wonder if sin would be allowed to fester like it does if we truly lived in community.
Oh well. There is coffee to be made and Scriptures to be studied.
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| Why I'm still planning to vote for Obama...
I'll add a hearty "Red Sucks!" but Wags is the only one likely to understand the true intent of it.
That is all.
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| The next hour of the day is growing to be one of my favorite. In about 30 minutes, the sun will start to peek over treetops and start to come out for the day. It's those first few minutes of hesitance, where it seems like it's not sure if it's ready to come up or not that make it wonderful.
I'm amazed at how easily I get frustrated at the stupidest little things. It doesn't take much for me to go completely bonkers, especially with technology. Maybe that's because I feel like I should have that "mastered" by now. What I do know is that it reveals flaws in my character that I'm not comfortable with. *sigh* More work.
Speaking at S@7 this weekend. "Who We Are, Who We Are Not". Message is turning out completely different than I thought it would. Of course, that's all still in my head where it's been fermenting for the last 4-6 weeks. I still have 3 days to get it on paper...
Life's latest revelation was on the topic of "closure". We all need emotional closure from time to time, but I'm discovering that the closure I need isn't what I thought it was. Go figure.
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